Zizhen nods approvingly as Jin Ling leaves, though as soon as he's gone he's quick to move to Jingyi's side and wrap his arms around him tightly.
"You didn't mess anything up," he promises "you made a mistake, and... well actually, it was probably a good mistake! That was kind of dramatic but... isn't it better that they did something? Better that Ling is going after him and that they'll talk properly, instead of being horribly formal at each other and both stupidly deciding they have to hide the fact they're still in love?"
He smiles encouragingly, kissing Jingyi on the forehead.
"And besides," he jokes "now we get to be alone."
~~~
It's probably the longest Yuan has ever cried over something since he was a child - he spent so many years being too pragmatic to really cry. It never helped, all it did was make you thirsty and tired - or blotchy, and nobody wanted to see that. It's stupid, he thinks, that this is what makes him break down. Everything he's been through and now he can't even handle somebody not being in love with him? Pathetic.
Except It's not that simple and he knows it.
Still, he forces himself to let go of Fairy, to fish a handkerchief from his sleeve and wipe his eyes, smiling despite himself when the spiritual dog turns and licks his cheek.
Only then she turns and runs off with a bark and his shoulders slump again.
He needs to call upon that old resolve, he knows he does, needs to harden his heart, stand up and find his way back to his rooms and... and he doesn't know what next, but he's used to that. The next thing right now, that's all he needs.
He just can't bring himself to move... right now...
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Date: 2022-06-21 05:59 am (UTC)From:Zizhen nods approvingly as Jin Ling leaves, though as soon as he's gone he's quick to move to Jingyi's side and wrap his arms around him tightly.
"You didn't mess anything up," he promises "you made a mistake, and... well actually, it was probably a good mistake! That was kind of dramatic but... isn't it better that they did something? Better that Ling is going after him and that they'll talk properly, instead of being horribly formal at each other and both stupidly deciding they have to hide the fact they're still in love?"
He smiles encouragingly, kissing Jingyi on the forehead.
"And besides," he jokes "now we get to be alone."
~~~
It's probably the longest Yuan has ever cried over something since he was a child - he spent so many years being too pragmatic to really cry. It never helped, all it did was make you thirsty and tired - or blotchy, and nobody wanted to see that. It's stupid, he thinks, that this is what makes him break down. Everything he's been through and now he can't even handle somebody not being in love with him? Pathetic.
Except It's not that simple and he knows it.
Still, he forces himself to let go of Fairy, to fish a handkerchief from his sleeve and wipe his eyes, smiling despite himself when the spiritual dog turns and licks his cheek.
Only then she turns and runs off with a bark and his shoulders slump again.
He needs to call upon that old resolve, he knows he does, needs to harden his heart, stand up and find his way back to his rooms and... and he doesn't know what next, but he's used to that. The next thing right now, that's all he needs.
He just can't bring himself to move... right now...